Boredom Ain't Real

"‘I’m bored’ is a useless thing to say. I mean, you live in a great, big, vast world that you’ve seen none percent of. Even the inside of your own mind is endless. The fact that you’re alive is amazing, so you don’t get to say ‘I’m bored.’"
-Louis CK


photo by Isabella Connelley

I have come out of my seasonal depression...I feel glorious.

After just a week of sunlight on my skin and eating mostly fruit, I rolled myself out like a blank, pale parchment ready for colour and whimsy and new stories.

Most of my life is delightful right now, and I am working my way to making the less desirable parts more in line with my true needs.

Life is always delicious, though, even in the gloomy parts.

For me this is a landscape and a time to bank up courage in a craven heart, to carry a greater fund of joy into the next cloud of sorrow, to learn even to love sorrow for the pleasure it divides, like the black notes on a keyboard, or hunger between meals. Perhaps even to discover that pain and pleasure, since they cannot exist without each other, are really the same thing.

- Ted Simon (Jupiter’s Travels)



Boredom is a completely foreign concept to me...well, not completely. Standing around doing nothing at my old job was so boring it was physically painful (not exaggerating) - the reason being that it was "the new way." For me, life is all about movement, whether it be physical or mental. I need to be occupied, by tasks, projects, books, art, people, animals, exercise - anything but the monotony of a prescribed, unmoving lockdown. Life moves...it needs to. It just does. So I am the same.


Speaking of projects, I have finally completed the zine I wrote in 2005. It is in the works of being printed. I am really proud of it! 70 (half page) handwritten and illustrated pages.

Now that I have discovered more ways to be healthy and vibrant, I will be posting much, much more.

I have kept to a raw vegan diet because of the ecstasy and loving energy it brings me, yet something was still missing after a couple of years. Lots of sun (I am going to travel somewhere warm every winter, I promise this to myself, even if it's California), B12 sub-lingual liquid methylcobalamin (stay clear of the cyanocobalamin - and take it whether you are omnivore or herbivore), eating mostly fruit (more on this later), always sleeping when tired (instead of fighting to stay up later - I always feel like I am missing out on something), and a length of time off. I have had 2 months mostly work-free (I do love my part-time raw-food job!), and I am ready to work again, this time somewhere I love and cherish (I used to love and cherish my old job, but things changed drastically!) - I have a particular one in mind that I desire SO much, so think good thoughts for me!

Until next time!

The Biology of New Beginnings

(Pin found here)


I just quit my job a few days ago. It has been the longest job I've had, and it's the longest I've gone without a massive break. I can feel the break happening anyway, in my mind. It craves space.

If a human body represented my life, this job would be the flesh. Now the flesh is slowly sliding off. The structure underneath, the bones, is now my one-day-a-week raw restaurant job, the semblance of a "normal" lifestyle.

What's left? The HEART, the BLOOD. Now with no flesh to focus on, these pulsations can flow right to the brain, and feed myriad dreams, goals, and creative obsessions.

My summer is all free to me, to bathe in sunlight, oceans, and forests. I feel this year will be a pinnacle of discovery - of many beauties, and of myself.

Expect many more posts now, since I am finally feeling free again. The outpouring and spilling open will commence.

A Dash of Hope, A Whallop of Ennui

Hello friends (whoever is reading this!)

My project is still underway, though it has had a rocky start. But at least it is a start! I have many things to say, simmering away in my hibernating brain.

This winter has been a tough one for me, for several reasons, but I am still sticking to my goals. My rules are not as rigid as I had originally intended, but I have set some standards, and the most important thing is that I am AWARE of them. Much more than usual. I am aware of what I want to accomplish, and I am aware when I am not taking steps to accomplish them.

I am still using my handmade chart. It is illuminating.

I am thinking of making a PDF for other people so they can use the same system. What do you think?

Hoping to get out of this funk soon...yet I am still writing.

Til next time,

Lorra.